December 29, 2008

Keep Waiting

The hardest moment in life are those when you have to wait.

Because your in a confusing state..NO NO ..i cant even describe it as a state...cause a state can be interchangeable. But waiting , it is " STAGNANCY" of body, soul, and mind..

To be Waiting is like being a Ghost.. ..You cant go to hell neither to heaven ..You have to wait till your curse is broken.

As i began writing this post, i wanted to write about waiting for Peace...This deferred dream of all suffering humans in the world..Will the day come when we see that all madness have ceased?

But as i continued to elaborate more, thoughts just shattered...actually they just got narrower!!. They became evolving around my personal life.....How selfish the human being is !! He even turns his thoughts for himself..why should he care about bigger issues that are hopeless.

Yes that's how my post twisted from writing about a WORLDWIDE issue into a personal one!!

Maybe i will just wait for thoughts to come again and write about it again...or maybe not.

I am waiting for the bird with a leaf in her mouth ...If you see her coming, tell the world please.

December 28, 2008

The " MaL" message:

This was my first angry hopeless message i have written in my life :S
Here it goes:


I speak not as the " MaL" of AUB's UNESCO CLUB but rather as a human being seeing people suffering with no one to stand by them.. none to cry out their suffering.

Yes you know what i am talking abt.

You might skip this message ,,but i beg you to continue reading...

You might think we cant change a thing in GHAZA....but at least we can make those who are ignorant and dont have a sense about whats goin in this world ..see it..

Yes I am feeling hopeless like everyone else .Yes i feel a hypocrite because i can not do anything and i am just talking.. But i am begging each one of u to have his own demonstration against whats happening:

1) You can Sing for them
2)You can pray with every Kneel you make.
3) You can cry if you want
4)You can light a candle
5) You can pray more and more
6) You can demonstrate through BLOGS, FACEBOOK, send messages, hotmail,msn chat with ur friends abt it ..I dunnoo..

7) YOU CAN FORWARD THIS MESSAGE to ur FRIENDS..or just write a shorter one...and send it !!

DO WATEVER u want..!
cose there will come a time where those children and those martyrs...will ask you what did you do?
What will be your answer?

Thanks for taking your time to read this message,


A Human Being.

December 24, 2008

The Process ...

Process of what? Process of chocolate manufacturing? No .hehhe though i had a very long project on this topic .. It is the process of applying to graduate schools!
It 's an overwhelming, time-consuming process.That's causing insomnia, Phobia , and many other psychological symptoms.
First, you have to study all summer for the GRE., apply it in October, then you remember since your mother language is not English; you're required to do TOEFL..Then, you have to begin searching or at least continue searching for Universities. Surf the internet for fellowship programs, scholarships, access embassies websites for any available opportunities, or google your major (LOL) along with the country you want to continue your studies..Sometimes you end up with nothing , sometimes you catch one or two..
( Please note that I am not trying scare anyone or nag on anyone's head )..
No its not a fishing technique, i reassert to you, it's a "PROCESS": beginning with the available ingredients : your GPA, your experience, and all these stuff..Then the steps: aptitude tests, searching engines, filling online applications, begging for recommendation letters, writing the strenuous never ending ESSAYs : about your personal statement, then your personal history and you future plans..As if they expect that the students are 40 years old and have enough date to fill these essays !!! Along with this process comes the control tests. just like temperatures , their are deadlines !! You have to abide by them otherwise , your product is either simply :
1) A waste that there is no way back..( all work gone for good)
2) A waste but can be reworked again for another semester.
3) A waste by choosing the worst choice....( i mean here by losing your opportunity to the BEST school and choosing the only available for you)

..I cant write anymore..Cause i still didnt get the product..i am still in the arduous processing step.
I will get to there later in a later post

December 3, 2008

To Unlock

When it closes, and you lose the keys..don't try opening it by a blade..
There is no way unless you find those keys you lost !

No am not talking about closen doors , am talking about unbreakable hearts.